January 23rd, 2007

Dream Log: I remember being at work but it wasn’t work. The feeling was there but it was visually different. It was dark, like a factory. A bunch of us were standing around. In reality, a technician I work with got his hair cut. In the dream, he had his hair but it was fake. There was also two of him. The second ‘him’ was someone named Adam, disguised as him. Adam’s wig found its way to Mike. It was hanging out of the back of his pants, like a tail. I vividly remember pulling it. What in the fuck is this?

Astral Log: There aren’t necessarily any fully successful attempts but I have been playing with conscious sleep. So, I suppose I’ll have those take the place of these until I have further things to report.

Last night while browsing forums I post at, I came across some MP3s that can aid in meditation and conscious sleep/astral projection (see http://gnomad.info/). Today, I decided to give the Boxed Nirvana MP3 a try. I sat upright in my computer chair and settled in for this experience. I got past the first stage even though I constantly moved to situate myself during this process. I also found myself itching all over so I had to scratch. I got to the second stage and imagined energy emitting from all seven points.

When I reached the third stage, I noticed almost immediately that I was in a conscious sleep. I was having excessive Rapid Eye Movement and my heart rate sped up significantly. I felt myself start to project along with excessive vibrations but came out of the state because of my heart rate change. After I came out, I went back into it and immediately went back into Rapid Eye Movement but couldn't harness it so I decided to try another method.

I grabbed a pillow from my bed and laid on the floor. I began from the first stage up to the third. Again, I immediately entered Rapid Eye Movement. I felt vibrations but not as intense as before. Though, my Rapid Eye Movement was far more severe and I felt as if I was sinking. I also saw the doorway in a blurred vision but no movement progressions. I tried hard to visualize myself rising but I couldn't grasp it.

Shortly after, I could feel my REM slipping away but then it would return, but not so severe. I could feel my eyes shifting direction behind my eyelids. I could feel myself looking 'up' but saw nothing but darkness. Other than the doorway vision, I pretty much saw darkness with a hint of white. During this, I was thinking about myself creating this thread so I eventually slipped completely out and rose up.

I also had a more successful experience this evening but that will be in tomorrow’s log.

Conclusion: The dream is most likely simply revolving around situations at work, once again. As strange as it seems, I have just been thinking about work a lot.

The Astral log seems to have made some progress. Although I am using the aid of a generated trainer, I still feel confident that I will have succession very soon. The fact that I haven’t fully succeeded is because it’s still all so new to me. But judging by tonight’s session with conscious sleep, I will only get better as I learn to relax and let the energy flow. Baby steps, remember.