Dream Log: I was at school in a school that I had never attended during my childhood. I was in some class but I can’t remember what it was. I remember I frequently visited a store. I had an old, mid 20th century radio and was browsing the store which I believe carried tapes, like the Boeing Overhaul manual micro view tapes. I visited this store frequently for information pertaining two evil spirits that reigned terror on physical beings, for it was the housing ground. I remember it was like Armageddon was near. I remember driving around.
I remember watching the inside of a house. There was a father and son hunting the evil spirits. I vividly remember seeing the son wearing big sunglasses and where his mouth was, was metal. The father was peeling skin off of his face which showed the metal. I remember seeing a girl sleeping in a bed with her brother. She awoke and her brother was risen and dead. There was a lot of death happening. I remember a lot of plague stricken areas and remember being in what resembled a castle with a courtyard and all, while I was in stealth. I remember being in a government building trying to find information to what was happening. I constantly woke up during the night, at times paralyzed. The dream was very strange, like I was having a nightmare. Also, work was in the dream once again.
Astral Log: Last night, I tried a new method that I have been meaning to try. After about a half of an hour, I started to receive results. Though, it was a new feeling so I semi panicked due to my uncomfortable position (in my chair). I felt my breathing change, like my throat was going numb and I began to see a white light omitting. I felt my body start to numb but then my concentration broke because I was a little freaked out, for it was a new sensation. So, I decided to try it again, this time on the floor.
I was very close but then, my fucking dogs broke my concentration. But, during my ‘nightmare’, I awoke with a feeling that there was a presence at my bedside. I tried to take a swing at it but couldn’t move, for I was in sleep paralysis. Sleep paralysis occurs when you’re transcending into your astral self (it is the transition point to where you move your energy into your astral self). I tried to harness this to have a successful conscious projection but was just too concerned about taking a swing at the presence. After fighting the transition process, I finally regained movement, took a swing at the presence and fell back asleep.
Conclusion: The dream is completely unexplainable. I lately have been keeping my negative energy to a minimum so it’s a possibility that the build up decided to release itself into my sleep. The situation with my sleep paralysis would have been beneficial if I wasn’t in the situation I was in. I honestly don’t know what could have caused the dream to occur nor know of any significance towards its meaning. Is it a look into the future? A look into the past? Who knows. Though, I do know that everything I experience is only going to my sea of experience and knowledge, where I can harness it and better myself on my future endeavors.
Monday, January 29, 2007
Friday, January 26, 2007
January 25th, 2007
Dream Log: Honestly, I slept way too deep. I have no memory.
Astral Log: This experience I think was a little freaky.
This evening, during REM, my body was shaking (mainly my head and upper body) uncontrollably. I decided to say 'screw it' and see what would happen if I tried, I mean actually tried hard to have an OBE. I began so I stuck with it but while trying, I started twitching very badly. I eventually decided that I would stop because I'm unaware of what was actually happening.
Conclusion: I need to try another method. I’m going to attempt to enter the Trance state with the aid of another MP3 I have. The one I have been using has reference points that I think I depend too much on. I personally think that I’m trying to hard because I depend on this particular generation too much. The one I will try next has no reference points, just frequency changes that I simply concentrate on. No waiting for different sounds to occur to focus my energy in a specific direction; no dependency.
Astral Log: This experience I think was a little freaky.
This evening, during REM, my body was shaking (mainly my head and upper body) uncontrollably. I decided to say 'screw it' and see what would happen if I tried, I mean actually tried hard to have an OBE. I began so I stuck with it but while trying, I started twitching very badly. I eventually decided that I would stop because I'm unaware of what was actually happening.
Conclusion: I need to try another method. I’m going to attempt to enter the Trance state with the aid of another MP3 I have. The one I have been using has reference points that I think I depend too much on. I personally think that I’m trying to hard because I depend on this particular generation too much. The one I will try next has no reference points, just frequency changes that I simply concentrate on. No waiting for different sounds to occur to focus my energy in a specific direction; no dependency.
January 24th, 2007
Dream Log: A house (in New Hampshire?) that I was at and so was my dad. I remember something to do with shelving racks, too. There was snow and we were snowed in for two days. I remember talking to someone about New Hampshire. Michelle came and picked me up from a friend’s house. I remember something about money. We went to her house and watched T.V. She laid with a pet rabbit.
I remember driving around a neighborhood trying to get to the hospital. We were going there to get our guitars intonated and we were going to go down to the morgue to kill some time. We then transformed into bike riding and were trying to get around a school where we ran into these kids and had a “bike war”. I remember being back at the house with the snow storm but it was a different person.
It looked like the house was a little run down. This guy was telling a story, like in a movie. I remember that he didn’t know what ‘comatose’ meant. I was then back at Michelle’s. I wanted to lay on the bed with her but I couldn’t. It feels like it might have been a different person with her name. There was a pocket dictionary with sound that I was playing with. My dad’s girlfriend was there. There were video/audio clips of old movies (circa The Wizard of Oz) and cartoons.
Then, there was a cat running around under my covers (I was lying on the floor). I thought it was the rabbit but it was the cat from the New Hampshire house. Then, I heard Randy (from work) say “I’m hung like a rabbit”. Immediately after, I awoke to the sound of my alarm clock.
I also remember this one guy I sort of know named Zach who lives in Florida called me. I remember being at a Google (yes, google.com) warehouse storing some of my belongings (cars, boxes etc.). I also remember driving on Highway 99 and being stuck in heavy construction.
Astral Log: I once again tried to achieve this without being contained in my sleep cycle.
I went through the stages, blah, and then came to the REM stage. Now, once again, I think I was trying too hard. During this phase, I actually saw what was in front of me during my REM. I did see a couple of things like a brilliant light (could be the light omitting into the room), a cavern of some sort (briefly) and a dark highway (briefly, but a couple times). Once again, I felt the sinking feeling. I tried to make myself rise but I couldn't progress. I also had visions/sights begin but I think I was trying too hard for them to come through therefore, they faded away. I eventually had to stop because I was losing the ability to sustain this tonight but this session was longer than last night's.
Conclusion: The dream is very odd. Honestly, I can’t think of, at least right now, what these images pertain to. The wanting to lay in bed with a girl I still believe holds a significant meaning of the fact that I’m tired of being single. Everything else, well, doesn’t make any sense easily and I don’t necessarily feel like analyzing it at this time.
The astral experience is getting closer and closer but not quite. I just need to practice and keep practicing.
I remember driving around a neighborhood trying to get to the hospital. We were going there to get our guitars intonated and we were going to go down to the morgue to kill some time. We then transformed into bike riding and were trying to get around a school where we ran into these kids and had a “bike war”. I remember being back at the house with the snow storm but it was a different person.
It looked like the house was a little run down. This guy was telling a story, like in a movie. I remember that he didn’t know what ‘comatose’ meant. I was then back at Michelle’s. I wanted to lay on the bed with her but I couldn’t. It feels like it might have been a different person with her name. There was a pocket dictionary with sound that I was playing with. My dad’s girlfriend was there. There were video/audio clips of old movies (circa The Wizard of Oz) and cartoons.
Then, there was a cat running around under my covers (I was lying on the floor). I thought it was the rabbit but it was the cat from the New Hampshire house. Then, I heard Randy (from work) say “I’m hung like a rabbit”. Immediately after, I awoke to the sound of my alarm clock.
I also remember this one guy I sort of know named Zach who lives in Florida called me. I remember being at a Google (yes, google.com) warehouse storing some of my belongings (cars, boxes etc.). I also remember driving on Highway 99 and being stuck in heavy construction.
Astral Log: I once again tried to achieve this without being contained in my sleep cycle.
I went through the stages, blah, and then came to the REM stage. Now, once again, I think I was trying too hard. During this phase, I actually saw what was in front of me during my REM. I did see a couple of things like a brilliant light (could be the light omitting into the room), a cavern of some sort (briefly) and a dark highway (briefly, but a couple times). Once again, I felt the sinking feeling. I tried to make myself rise but I couldn't progress. I also had visions/sights begin but I think I was trying too hard for them to come through therefore, they faded away. I eventually had to stop because I was losing the ability to sustain this tonight but this session was longer than last night's.
Conclusion: The dream is very odd. Honestly, I can’t think of, at least right now, what these images pertain to. The wanting to lay in bed with a girl I still believe holds a significant meaning of the fact that I’m tired of being single. Everything else, well, doesn’t make any sense easily and I don’t necessarily feel like analyzing it at this time.
The astral experience is getting closer and closer but not quite. I just need to practice and keep practicing.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
January 23rd, 2007
Dream Log: I remember being at work but it wasn’t work. The feeling was there but it was visually different. It was dark, like a factory. A bunch of us were standing around. In reality, a technician I work with got his hair cut. In the dream, he had his hair but it was fake. There was also two of him. The second ‘him’ was someone named Adam, disguised as him. Adam’s wig found its way to Mike. It was hanging out of the back of his pants, like a tail. I vividly remember pulling it. What in the fuck is this?
Astral Log: There aren’t necessarily any fully successful attempts but I have been playing with conscious sleep. So, I suppose I’ll have those take the place of these until I have further things to report.
When I reached the third stage, I noticed almost immediately that I was in a conscious sleep. I was having excessive Rapid Eye Movement and my heart rate sped up significantly. I felt myself start to project along with excessive vibrations but came out of the state because of my heart rate change. After I came out, I went back into it and immediately went back into Rapid Eye Movement but couldn't harness it so I decided to try another method.
I grabbed a pillow from my bed and laid on the floor. I began from the first stage up to the third. Again, I immediately entered Rapid Eye Movement. I felt vibrations but not as intense as before. Though, my Rapid Eye Movement was far more severe and I felt as if I was sinking. I also saw the doorway in a blurred vision but no movement progressions. I tried hard to visualize myself rising but I couldn't grasp it.
Shortly after, I could feel my REM slipping away but then it would return, but not so severe. I could feel my eyes shifting direction behind my eyelids. I could feel myself looking 'up' but saw nothing but darkness. Other than the doorway vision, I pretty much saw darkness with a hint of white. During this, I was thinking about myself creating this thread so I eventually slipped completely out and rose up.
I also had a more successful experience this evening but that will be in tomorrow’s log.
Conclusion: The dream is most likely simply revolving around situations at work, once again. As strange as it seems, I have just been thinking about work a lot.
The Astral log seems to have made some progress. Although I am using the aid of a generated trainer, I still feel confident that I will have succession very soon. The fact that I haven’t fully succeeded is because it’s still all so new to me. But judging by tonight’s session with conscious sleep, I will only get better as I learn to relax and let the energy flow. Baby steps, remember.
Astral Log: There aren’t necessarily any fully successful attempts but I have been playing with conscious sleep. So, I suppose I’ll have those take the place of these until I have further things to report.
Last night while browsing forums I post at, I came across some MP3s that can aid in meditation and conscious sleep/astral projection (see http://gnomad.info/). Today, I decided to give the Boxed Nirvana MP3 a try. I sat upright in my computer chair and settled in for this experience. I got past the first stage even though I constantly moved to situate myself during this process. I also found myself itching all over so I had to scratch. I got to the second stage and imagined energy emitting from all seven points.
When I reached the third stage, I noticed almost immediately that I was in a conscious sleep. I was having excessive Rapid Eye Movement and my heart rate sped up significantly. I felt myself start to project along with excessive vibrations but came out of the state because of my heart rate change. After I came out, I went back into it and immediately went back into Rapid Eye Movement but couldn't harness it so I decided to try another method.
I grabbed a pillow from my bed and laid on the floor. I began from the first stage up to the third. Again, I immediately entered Rapid Eye Movement. I felt vibrations but not as intense as before. Though, my Rapid Eye Movement was far more severe and I felt as if I was sinking. I also saw the doorway in a blurred vision but no movement progressions. I tried hard to visualize myself rising but I couldn't grasp it.
Shortly after, I could feel my REM slipping away but then it would return, but not so severe. I could feel my eyes shifting direction behind my eyelids. I could feel myself looking 'up' but saw nothing but darkness. Other than the doorway vision, I pretty much saw darkness with a hint of white. During this, I was thinking about myself creating this thread so I eventually slipped completely out and rose up.
I also had a more successful experience this evening but that will be in tomorrow’s log.
Conclusion: The dream is most likely simply revolving around situations at work, once again. As strange as it seems, I have just been thinking about work a lot.
The Astral log seems to have made some progress. Although I am using the aid of a generated trainer, I still feel confident that I will have succession very soon. The fact that I haven’t fully succeeded is because it’s still all so new to me. But judging by tonight’s session with conscious sleep, I will only get better as I learn to relax and let the energy flow. Baby steps, remember.
Monday, January 22, 2007
January 21st, 2007
Dream Log: I remember a number of things. The dream felt like it revolved around a concert. I talked to a number of people there about Nevermore amongst other topics. I remember being on an island, like a giant amusement park, fighting my way and using stealth technique to get to the “airship” home. This memory feels like it might be from a previous dream. I remember being in a room with somebody else (a girl) and out of nowhere, thousands of insects poured into the room, like a plague. I vividly remember seeing scorpions in the bunch. I ran into the garage to get a Shopvac but when I got back upstairs, they were all gone. Immediately after, I saw a porch that had been eaten away by bugs/termites. I had a feeling of this house being exposed to open air, like it was very ancient or barely survived a severe storm. It was a big house if not a castle. I also have a memory of being on the roof of a giant castle. On this roof were a number of demons, not necessarily evil looking but more like ancient, unearthly guardians standing in certain sections just simply guarding. I don’t remember visually but have a feeling that Kim was there.
Astral Log: Nothing to log.
Conclusion: The fact that the dream revolved mainly around a concert was because I missed the Seattle Metalfest on Saturday. The ‘amusement park’ scene is believed to be a former dream, if not reoccurring, because I faintly remember having that dream in the past unless the memory is so odd that it seems like it didn’t occur last night. I remember it having an almost movie setting/ending but that may not be necessarily applicable for this date. The bug, guardian and castle situations are unknown. The girl in the room before ‘the plague’ would most likely because of current circumstances in my life, the fact that I have been single for over two years to date and feel empty. The plague issue may be because of a plague discussion I had with my cousin.
The fact that I haven’t had any conscious Astral experience is kind of disappointing but it is my fault for not trying. I was extremely tired last night so I just wanted to sleep heavily. Over the weekend, I was just so tired and had almost no memories of any dreams. I think the best way to truly have Astral experiences is by heavy meditation and trance stages. That will be something I’ll try to push myself to work on.
Astral Log: Nothing to log.
Conclusion: The fact that the dream revolved mainly around a concert was because I missed the Seattle Metalfest on Saturday. The ‘amusement park’ scene is believed to be a former dream, if not reoccurring, because I faintly remember having that dream in the past unless the memory is so odd that it seems like it didn’t occur last night. I remember it having an almost movie setting/ending but that may not be necessarily applicable for this date. The bug, guardian and castle situations are unknown. The girl in the room before ‘the plague’ would most likely because of current circumstances in my life, the fact that I have been single for over two years to date and feel empty. The plague issue may be because of a plague discussion I had with my cousin.
The fact that I haven’t had any conscious Astral experience is kind of disappointing but it is my fault for not trying. I was extremely tired last night so I just wanted to sleep heavily. Over the weekend, I was just so tired and had almost no memories of any dreams. I think the best way to truly have Astral experiences is by heavy meditation and trance stages. That will be something I’ll try to push myself to work on.
Friday, January 19, 2007
January 18th, 2007
Dream Log: Due to the fact that I was too busy to log last night right away, most of the memories are lost. All I remember is being at work and us bringing in something. I believe it started out to be a Flap (Aircraft) but then it turned into a Foosball table. My buddy Billy was there and he said “What is this, a pinball machine?” but of course, it wasn’t. Then, the Foosball table turned into a Airhockey table. I remember a few people there and they were all playing Airhockey. I had another memory this morning but I lost it throughout the day.
Astral Log: Nothing to report.
Conclusion: The setting at work was caused by all of the stress and hyperactivity that occurred at work throughout the week. The fact that I have been too tired physically and mentally throughout the week has caused me to not be able to have proper Dream Recall nor Astral Projection. Hopefully this weekend, I’ll be able to succeed.
Astral Log: Nothing to report.
Conclusion: The setting at work was caused by all of the stress and hyperactivity that occurred at work throughout the week. The fact that I have been too tired physically and mentally throughout the week has caused me to not be able to have proper Dream Recall nor Astral Projection. Hopefully this weekend, I’ll be able to succeed.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
January 17th, 2007
Dream Log: Once again, not much is remembered. All I really remember is that my neighbor’s house was sold and other people moved it. They were having a party and I went over there to hang out. Though, the house felt like my neighbor’s as did mine, but it wasn’t physically. It looked nothing like my house, their house nor my neighborhood. Though, the feeling was there, the comfort; it was my home.
There was a girl there that I met but I don’t remember much. I just remember that she was cute but I had much affection for her. I believe that we were a couple. I don’t really have any recollection of what the affection and love I felt was based off of but for some reason, Brianna’s (my ex-girlfriend) name pops in my head. I don’t know why that would be since we had broken up over two years ago. It may be because of the fact that I haven’t been in a relationship since then.
Astral Log: Nothing to report.
Conclusion: My faint memories and lack of astral recordings is believed to be caused by me being too tired to have any success. My brain is tired as my body so I can’t keep that threshold that would allow me consciousness. The dream is believed to be caused by the fact that my neighbor’s are selling the house and that the sign is down which means most likely, their house has been sold. The past memory and feeling that is linked with Brianna may be caused by the fact of myself not truly moving on since. Though, I have moved on, there is still a void there that hasn’t been filled due to the fact that I have been single since the end of that relationship. Thus, the “familiar” girl in the dream was her and the feeling of moving on/being in a relationship again; loving and being loved, one thing that I lack at this point in time.
There was a girl there that I met but I don’t remember much. I just remember that she was cute but I had much affection for her. I believe that we were a couple. I don’t really have any recollection of what the affection and love I felt was based off of but for some reason, Brianna’s (my ex-girlfriend) name pops in my head. I don’t know why that would be since we had broken up over two years ago. It may be because of the fact that I haven’t been in a relationship since then.
Astral Log: Nothing to report.
Conclusion: My faint memories and lack of astral recordings is believed to be caused by me being too tired to have any success. My brain is tired as my body so I can’t keep that threshold that would allow me consciousness. The dream is believed to be caused by the fact that my neighbor’s are selling the house and that the sign is down which means most likely, their house has been sold. The past memory and feeling that is linked with Brianna may be caused by the fact of myself not truly moving on since. Though, I have moved on, there is still a void there that hasn’t been filled due to the fact that I have been single since the end of that relationship. Thus, the “familiar” girl in the dream was her and the feeling of moving on/being in a relationship again; loving and being loved, one thing that I lack at this point in time.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
January 16th, 2007
Dream Log: A big house surrounded by people not allowing me to have any privacy. Another memory took place in a factory where I worked, with my father. I remember the sounds of the machines reminded me of a song from Silent Hill 3. At a sporting even where we had box seats. I remember being on the field with people I knew, pre-game. Then, a famous QB came out with a microphone and we began to walk in a line. The QB assigned each of us a certain space in the line while simultaneously introducing to the public who we were. Looking into the stands, there were a lot of people. I wanted to be by my dad but some gay person was. I wasn’t being recognized or acknowledged. I remember the microphone cord wasn’t long enough and it snapped. I picked it up and looked at it.
Astral Log: Nothing to report.
Conclusion: No Astral log because I was in too deep of a state of sleep. The dream, however, makes me think of work. At work, I often times feel as if people don’t appreciate what I do or acknowledge the time and effort that is required for what I do for that company.
Astral Log: Nothing to report.
Conclusion: No Astral log because I was in too deep of a state of sleep. The dream, however, makes me think of work. At work, I often times feel as if people don’t appreciate what I do or acknowledge the time and effort that is required for what I do for that company.
January 15th, 2007
Dream Log: Nothing to record.
Astral Log: Nothing to record.
Conclusion: Too cluttered? I had zero success.
Astral Log: Nothing to record.
Conclusion: Too cluttered? I had zero success.
January 14th, 2007
Dream Log: Not much is remembered. All I remember is being in a hotel. There was another person there who received Emperor’s old room. I wanted Emperor’s or Dimmu Borgir’s old room. I asked the housekeeper whose room I was receiving. She said a band from the States. I was disappointed with the results. I think it was Atreyu’s.
Astral Log: Success. I awoke and told myself what I read. I predict that this was around 2:30A.M. I finally slipped into a conscious sleep. My true Astral self left my physical body. I didn’t even leave the room. For some reason, I got scared and went back to my physical self a little too quickly. I awoke with a “jerk”. Why was I too afraid to explore? I think it was because of the fact that I was new to understanding Astral Projection.
Conclusion: Day one was a success and now, I won’t be so afraid.
Astral Log: Success. I awoke and told myself what I read. I predict that this was around 2:30A.M. I finally slipped into a conscious sleep. My true Astral self left my physical body. I didn’t even leave the room. For some reason, I got scared and went back to my physical self a little too quickly. I awoke with a “jerk”. Why was I too afraid to explore? I think it was because of the fact that I was new to understanding Astral Projection.
Conclusion: Day one was a success and now, I won’t be so afraid.
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